Sunny Sunday :)

I spent today at Justin's parents house in Toowoomba. We had lunch there & stayed longer than we thought we would. Sometimes time gets away from you when you are having a nice time.
The highlight of my day was the ride on lawnmower/baby tractor that I got to play on. The lawn is not doing as well & a bit patchy in some areas but fun none the less.

So today I saw my brothers wedding photos (he got married last week in bali) & I am determined to make sure that when I make the trip down the aisle, that I get as much of this weight off as possible so that I can look back & feel as good about the pictures as I remember feeling when i finally get to say "I do".

With that said, it's time to go get some exercise in so that I know i've done everything possible to get a good weigh in figure tomorrow.

Hope you all had an awesome day. Don't forget to live life now instead of waiting to loose the weight to live life :)

Drizzly rainy day

Well not exactly drizzly. There was alot of rain this morning, and thunder then grey overcast skies. Now we are getting thunder again.
These kinds of days are perfect for staying in bed aren't they?
Well I have to say, the motivation is still reasonably high because i'm still in my first week but I know that in a few weeks time a day like this will have me eating the fun size crunchies in the fridge.
Old me would have said, "just eat them all then they are all gone" - realistic me is saying "it's ok to have one occasionally, not every day, but occasionally".
So today I have had a bit of a change in the breakfast foods, I ate multigrain toast with spinach leaves, tomato, bacon & egg - it is after all the weekend.
For lunch I had a multigrain sammich with avacado, spinach leaves, tomato & a slice of cheese.
Dinner will be chicken & veg.
I've snacked on carrot sticks & almonds today & have already made the decission that I will not indulge in a crunchy today. If I want something sweet I will have some yoghurt or a pear.
and now i'm off for a walk to get some activity in before rain decides to hit :)

~~~~~~~~~ My Goals ~~~~~~~~

So yesterday I said that i'd post my goals up. When I sat down to make up these goals, it was because I was frustrated, tired & couldn't sleep because if i was on my back my boobs and skin came up too far & felt like they were suffocating me, if I was on my sides I would cut off circulation to my arms & get sore & I got uncomfortable on my tummy because i'm not used to sleeping that way. So I decided to write my goals & my awards.
I decided to make S.M.A.R.T. goals. "specific, measurable, attainable, realistic and timely".
I think part of my issue is that if I look to loose 10 kilos before rewarding myself it's too far away & feels unatainable, so I set goals & rewards every 2.5 kg starting at 92.5kg. I know that my first week I will be in for a larger loss & as I go along the losses will get smaller & harder to achieve but with that said, 2.5kg to the next goal is still easier to visualise attaining than 10kg.
As I go along, the rewards get better (and more expensive) but they are things that I want for me and that will make me feel better about me. So without further ado, here are my goals :)


Starting Weight 96.4kg - End Goal Weight 75kg

Goal 1 - 92.5kg: New Hair Dye/Colour
Goal 2 - 90.0kg: New Pair of Jeans
Goal 3 - 87.5kg: Underarm & Leg Wax
Goal 4 - 85.0kg: Justin gets eyebrow pierced
Goal 5 - 82.5kg: Manicure/Pedicure
Goal 6 - 80.0kg: New "Cute" lingerie set
Goal 7 - 77.5kg: Facial & Hair Cut/Colour
Goal 8 - 75.0kg: Australian citizenship


I'm sure i'll want to loose a bit more to get into a healthier weight range but 20kg is enough to focus on for now.
So far i'm tracking well for a loss on Monday& i'll keep you posted through the weekend.
Will have to do damage control tomorrow. Tonight was take out Friday & I went with hot chips. also 2x fun size crunchies. Otherwise eating for the rest of the day was well controlled :)

Is it just me or are fun size better than normal or king size? I once read that taste buds only really pay attention & savour food for the first few bites, in which case, if we eat for the taste, maybe it's better to eat bite size?

Starting Over

Well guess who's starting over? That's right it's me :)

I'll give you the quick run down on my stats Monday Morning I was 96.4kg... damn!!
My heaviest recorded weight ever was 97.3 a few years back. Aprox this time last year I was 82kg, so as you can see i've made backwards progress.

I'm once again at the stage where my circulation cutsoff when I sleep & i'm constantly waking with pins & needles. I'm unfit & generally just unhappy with myself. I've been this way for a bit now but every week that I swear i'm going to make a change I don't do it & I add a few hundred more grams.

I decided that the buck stops here & if I want results i'll have to work at it so I am.
I'm not ww'ing but I am resorting back to the principles that saw me successful last time.
I will weigh in every monday morning & post on here. If I start to plateau then I will give myself 2 weeks to pull out of my funk, if I start to go backwards then I will cough up the money & rejoin.
I have to say that the ww boards are proving helpful & supportive for me & I still see a fair few of the same friendly faces on there which is also helpful & keeping me accountable.
I've also made myself a set of goals & rewards which i've broken down to 2.5kg increments starting at 92.5kg to help me stay focussed. Tomorrow i'll post the goals :)
Justin is remaining supportive as always but it is a very guarded support at this stage as I have started then stopped so many times. I did tell him not to support me but of course he wants to support me all the time so he is trying to stick by me without hurting himself by getting his hopes up that this time I will make it.
Best of all though, I really do feel that I am doing it for me this time, which makes me confident I will get results. I think it's no longer about not liking myself, it's about liking myself enough to admit I want better.

Weekend!!

Friday nights are take out night in my house although I didn't feel like normal take out so decided on a chicken & veg pie. Desert was a kit kat family block shared with Justin... by shared I mean he got 2 or 3 bars... yesterday morning i was 89.4, this morning I am 89.6.

should I ban myself from daily weigh ins & just go weekly?

Water intake still needs more work, usually make it through 1 bottle & a bit of water a day...

Does anyone know where my other sock is, I wore two to bed last night & one is now missing.... lol

The dreaded morning teas....

sooo we had another morning tea this morning. These may well prove to be the bain of my existence in trying to loose weight... at least I stayed away from the cheese lol. I did actually only have 2 cookies & I made them at least so I know what went in them.

In other news, water consumption is okish sometimes & then other days it's very low. today is medium, I am forming this habit before I move onto other things. 1 step at a time :)

In even better news, I can actually access this blog from work so I may actually revive it yet instead of leaving it dormant for months on end....

so if anyone still checks this blog, stay posted cause i'm back!!

New start

Hi, it's been a while. I've started my new job and I am absolutely loving it, they've moved me into a cbd office so it's no longer over an hour on the trains instead a respectable 30 minutes. After a month of being slack & driving to work (at the old site) I am now walking to & from the train station every day, I also have a 45 minutes lunch break so i'm able to get a few extra steps in if I go anywhere (like the bank or post office). I usually clock up between 7 & 8 km a day or 2.5-3 ww points.
So with all this extra movement you'd think I was loosing weight. Well not really. I am hovering still. Part of this comes down to my water intake, part of it comes down to my eating intake. I have dug out my old points calculator & i do find it surprising checking out the points values on some things.
Over the next week though, the focus will be on water. I'm not going to worry about doing extra exercise at the moment. My walking is more than enough (so are the hills I have to climb). I also won't worry about food yet & only because with the walking it is still holding me steady around 90kg. So first I will learn to crawl, then baby steps till I can run. Really wanting to loose at least 10kg by christmas but i'll just focus on getting the steps right & eventually the weight will look after itself.

Oh & here's a strange one... I'm allowed to use Facebook at work, which is social networking but I can't use my blogsite cause it's classed as an online community which is against our internet use policy... go figure.