Starting Over

Well guess who's starting over? That's right it's me :)

I'll give you the quick run down on my stats Monday Morning I was 96.4kg... damn!!
My heaviest recorded weight ever was 97.3 a few years back. Aprox this time last year I was 82kg, so as you can see i've made backwards progress.

I'm once again at the stage where my circulation cutsoff when I sleep & i'm constantly waking with pins & needles. I'm unfit & generally just unhappy with myself. I've been this way for a bit now but every week that I swear i'm going to make a change I don't do it & I add a few hundred more grams.

I decided that the buck stops here & if I want results i'll have to work at it so I am.
I'm not ww'ing but I am resorting back to the principles that saw me successful last time.
I will weigh in every monday morning & post on here. If I start to plateau then I will give myself 2 weeks to pull out of my funk, if I start to go backwards then I will cough up the money & rejoin.
I have to say that the ww boards are proving helpful & supportive for me & I still see a fair few of the same friendly faces on there which is also helpful & keeping me accountable.
I've also made myself a set of goals & rewards which i've broken down to 2.5kg increments starting at 92.5kg to help me stay focussed. Tomorrow i'll post the goals :)
Justin is remaining supportive as always but it is a very guarded support at this stage as I have started then stopped so many times. I did tell him not to support me but of course he wants to support me all the time so he is trying to stick by me without hurting himself by getting his hopes up that this time I will make it.
Best of all though, I really do feel that I am doing it for me this time, which makes me confident I will get results. I think it's no longer about not liking myself, it's about liking myself enough to admit I want better.