The plan

Cause everyone has to have a plan.......

Since my last post, I have spent time reflecting, thinking and planning.

I have reflected on food choices, portion control & lack of exercise. I have thought about how I could change these and I have started to plan how & what I am going to do.

For anyone out there with kids you all know it can be much more convienient to feed them fast & easy things that you know they like & will eat. The sucky thing about this is that they may not be the best food choice for yourself. I'm talking curried sausages, chilli con carne (with the cheese & sour cream), 3 cheese pasta bake, pizza, take out etc....

I am in a more unique situation in that I have my partners children (teenagers) who swoop in during school holidays, throw my plans & schedules out the window & then go away leaving me a few kilos heavier & usually a bit less motivated than I would like to be.

Well not this time.

This morning I decided to time myself walking to the train station because in just over a week this will be a daily occurence. It took me 40 minutes toget there. I expect that the time frame will go down as I walk this route on a daily basis & work on getting a bit fitter. So that was 2.4 km there & then home again (although today I had one of the kids with me so we got picked up 1/2 way home)

Later this afternoon I got severely annoyed with the kids. I decided to get out of home & go for a walk. I will say that by the time I made it back home I was absolutely buggered but I walked another 5 km this afternoon. I clocked up over 13,000 steps today & aprox 9km. not too bad!!

So anyways back to my plans. I did realise the other day that it would be kind of pointless to try & get myself in a routine & change my eating habits when our lifestyle will be different in a few days to what it is now. So instead I have lamented upon what I will do differently. Money is tight at the moment so I will not be rejoining weight watchers. I am also a bit scared of their new pro points system & i've heard that others have had similar issues changing from the old system to the new pro points. So instead I am going to dig out my old WW magazines & cookbooks & utilise them to get my eating habits back on track.

I will no longer be doing shift work so I will use my evenings to plan out the day ahead & prepare for success because failure is no longer an option.

Water intake hasn't suffered too much at all no matter what i've been doing but it is time for me to up the ante' on this as well.

So as far as things go, tomorrow will be the last day that I allow myself to not be 100% committed. But come Wednesday, i'm going all in & I expect results.

Food intake

Time tolook at my food intake I think cause to be honest today was not great at all.

I started the day off with a cup of herbal tea.... not too bad.
1/2 a cup of milk
Leftover homemade pizza for breakfast....
Lunch was a slice of toblerone cheesecake
Afternoon tea was a handful of Jelly Babies
Dinner was some potato scallops, hot chips & a can of coke.

I didn't consume water today either....

So yeah uhhm heaps of room for improvement.

I think I will track my food on here everyday so I know what I am and aren't eating.

Today was horrible.

Tomorrow I hope to be better.

Monment of Truth

89 kg....

To say I am surprised? No i'm not really.
To say i'm dissapointed? Well yeah I am.

I had a look through my old WW weigh in booklet the other day whilst I was cleaning my room & I was at one point down to 82 kg. So i've gone up by 7kg.
My clothes feel tighter & some of them I just flat out can not wear anymore.
Instead of size 14 in some of my tops I am back to 16
My tummy sticks out more
I wear 18 in pants again
I notice the change in having to carry the extra weight

It may seem strange that 7kg can make so much difference but it does. 7 kg makes 1/2 way to my goal of 75... I could have been 1/2 way there. hell by now I probably could have been there.

Still, it's time to stop berating, and get back to one of my favourite sayings by Greenbay Packers coach Vince Lombardi: Success is like anything worthwhile. It has a price. You have to pay the price to win and you have to pay the price to get to the point where success is possible. Most important, you have to pay the price to stay there.

So, here's to getting there & to staying there.

Easter

Hey hey people who may check by once in a while to see if I still blog..

It's funny, I sometimes click on it through my favourites, look at how long since I blogged & then I decide that I don't have time to blog. Like today, I have time to play Cafe' World on Facebook (by the way I would love for you all to become my neighbours) but i'm too busy to blog....

So just to update you all on my life.. Weightloss is going horribly & when I say horribly I really do mean horribly. I haven't gone over 90 kilos yet but if I don't do something Iwill.

For close to a year I have complained about my weight, I have complained about work & generally how I want to make everything better.

At the end of Feb after I was burnt yet again by a crappy organisation that I am extremely happy to leave, I started assesing the job market. Not the usual flick through of "oh look I could do that" but the look of "Can I do this, will it offer me more, will I enjoy it, Can I see a future here"

I applied for 3 jobs. One I did not get a callback for. Another I got called but turned down because it really was just going to be the same heartache just with a different company. Now the one that I really really really wanted I got a callback on. Then I went in for an interview & assesment, then a group interview & assesment, then a panel interview (OMG) until finally last week I was called with the awesome news that after 8 weeks & out of over 900 applicants and out of those only 50 getting to panel interview stage, I was 1 of 32 lucky people to get picked. So in a weeks time I will start work for QLD govt in their Smart Service Contact Centre. I am extremely excited!!! I can not think of bad poits, this place has windows, I will see sunlight, better pay, lots of opportunity for a better career, people get things based on merit not based on looks or who's in the boys club. Plus big bonus is I get to catch the train so I will walk to the train in the morning & then home from the train at night which = exercise!

There will be a few adjustments on the home front as my partner & I will no longer work together but that will just mean that I get a chance to miss & appreciate him some more :)

I still plan on getting my Aussie Citizenship (spelling???) & I still need to make my goal of 75kg to do so. Also we are heading into winter & I refuse to come out of hibernation in spring with extra kilos to shed. I plan on making it to the beach this summer & I plan on being happy with my body.

So I will leave you all now with my plans & hopefully there is someone out there still reading. I've noticed that a few of the blogs I follow don't get alot of updates these days so I think I will also look for a new blog each week to help keep me motivated & of course I will keep checking all the blogs to see how you're all going.

Good luck with the choccies on Sunday. The easter bunny is bringing me 1 rabbit and maybe a few mini eggs so that will be my indulgence. Otherwise, it's time for me to start bringing it.

p.s. i'll do a quick blog tomorrow to update my weight. i'll count it as my starting weight because easter signifies spring, birth, new beginnings & right now my life is all about new beginnings :)